Archive for February, 2010

A million miles in 2.5 years

Posted in Uncategorized on February 8, 2010 by mysearchforjesus

I’ve recently started trying to better myself through setting goals and actually trying to give meaningful form to my life. Prior to recently my life has sorta gone with the wind without any real objectives. I’ve never had any lifelong ambitions that have served as a guide, but instead only temporal ambitions which have led me down rabbit trails to no where. I’d always be left at the end of one these rabbit trails without much sense of accomplishment and confused to why I was here. But before now, I really was clueless to who I was, what I was made for, and what lit my heart on fire and turned on all cylinders. I definitely don’t know now, but I finally think I’m starting to get pointers. I feel like I know a lot about what my life will not be about, but not a lot of what it will be about. I’m just searching for that life that kicks on all cylinders and stops this sleep walk through life. The life that God foresaw when he delightfully made me. Which makes me really wonder, what did God put in my inmost being? Its not meant to be kept from me, in fact I’m sure He can’t wait to tell me. I’m excited about what God has for me, and I’m glad I don’t know what it is. Because I can finally say with assurance: whatever it is He will be with me.

For you created my inmost being;
       you knit me together in my mother’s womb.

 14 I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made;
       your works are wonderful,
       I know that full well.

 15 My frame was not hidden from you
       when I was made in the secret place.
       When I was woven together in the depths of the earth,

 16 your eyes saw my unformed body.
       All the days ordained for me
       were written in your book
       before one of them came to be.

 17 How precious to me are your thoughts, O God!
       How vast is the sum of them!